Today is the day that everything ended. I soon realize it is the only thing holding me back. Yet it was the one thing i truly loved. He was my first love and will not be my last yet, he was special and ...  i hope we will always be together in some way or another. I learned that i can't hold back and i have to work on flaws weather i believe they are flaws or they are not. A new chapter is opening for me a new one that i will not allowed to be closed. I will complete my goals and dreams to go were i need to even if that is no where far. I have to be The laura i wanna be an intelligent independent woman, maybe the fact that one day we will be okay and one day he will be my friend makes me feel some what better gives me a please of mind yet it does not. I am some what confused yet i hope he learns from this as well as i do. Thank you .. i guess ill stay posted as you can see i am a mess today is the day that i will learn how to grow and be my own person again yet you never think you have to learn how to be yourself again? right well that is what i thought but i was wrong.